So much has been going on these last couple of weeks that I haven't had time to update this thing so here goes nothing.

California was amazing. I am in complete love with that place. I had the trip of my life time. I want to go back every year. I've already decided that I am going to buy a beach house on Manhattan Beach. I want to go back soo bad! It was my little escape from reality and I loved every minute of it. There are too many great memories to even try to put on this thing. But I'm sure if you talk to me enough, I'll tell you all about my wonderful trip.

Ever since I got back from Cali, I have been trying to fit everything in that I want to do before I leave for school. Unfortunatley, I have come to terms with the fact that that is never going to happen. I have spent a lot of time packing everything I own and realized that I have a lot of shit. I have almost everything finally packed and ready to go, even if I'm not.

Erin, Emma and I went shopping on Wednesday at Easton. I am going to miss those girls soooo very very much. I really wish that Anna would have been able to come that way I could have spent the day with my favorite girls, but she is still at the beach. The three of us had a great time and I got some last needed items before school.

Today I had my going away party. I am very very proud of myself for staying composed during the party. I didn't cry once, although I thought Emma was gonna make me. I hate saying goodbye to people. It is one of the worst feelings ever. Especially when you look back and realize that there is soo much more that you want to say to them. The party was fun though, especially the end. Tim, Andy, Lindsey, Adam, and Helen stayed until 3:30. We spent 3 hours reliving childhood and high school memories. It was soo much fun just sitting in my living room talking to them. I am going to miss that so much. Everyone says that you should be soo excited to go away, but I am feeling so much more depressed than excited. I don't want to leave my friends. My biggest fear is that I am going to lose them. I don't know what I will do if I do lose any of them. My friends mean the world to me.

Well tomorrow is my last day home and I'm spending it with my family and getting last minute things together. I am going to a movie with Erin, Emma and Tyler later at night to make one final and very very very difficult goodbye. I know I am going to lose it. Erin and I have been best friends for over 12 years and Emma is just so emotional anyway. God tomorrow is going to be hard. Then bright and early Saturday morning I am off to big Ashland. I love you and will miss you all soo much.